I cried tonight
I struggle to give the benefit of doubt, to give love, to even give trust, but I am willing to, because You gave all of this, when I don’t deserve it. And I will give all of this too, even if it means a possibility of me getting hurt. I hope You are around to catch if I ever were to fall, and humans fail me; if my giving is met with a failure; if I am scared; if I am unsure; if I am impatient. Catch me.
God… tonight you have been faithful in my prayers. I was so nervous during altar call. Thank You for moving in her heart. I am sure she will come to see your goodness and faithfulness to her in time to come 
So let’s say that theoretically I really like you, and theoretically even though it sounds moronically cliche and overused, you give me butterflies. And just for kicks, lets add that all in theory of course you may be one of the most wonderful people I have ever met, and hypothetically my heart beats ten times faster when I see you. Do you think that you would supposedly (and in the most theoretical sense) feel the same way?
came up with this while sitting on the skytrain during work. i sit on the sky train multiple times a day. and i think this is very funny, and it is dedicated to Tan. =) I think it suits u!
She’s tough. She tries to hide it. She’s difficult. But if you make an effort, she’s worth it. She’s worth the effort.
— Grey’s Anatomy
tell me i am worth it…
tell someone she is worth it…
no matter the tough and difficult front…
Good decisions come from experience, and experience comes from bad decisions.
the hardest part of life isn’t learning to love, but learning to be loved.
you are not alone if you are struggling in this area. i am too. i rely too much on my self sufficiency. i kinda don’t like it when people fuss over me. i am not used to be loved. i just cope myself. and then, I realized, I need to be loved too heh.
It’s not about being who everyone else wants you to be, it’s about being yourself and finding someone who loves every bit of it.
outing with munyi (: wearing shibao’s afro wig. I think i suit short hair seriously heh?
a random kid at the airport. i got tons more photos of kids at the airport. the nicer ones are not on my phone. i shall upload them once i got the chance.
other than being busy meeting up friends, and working and playing with kids while at work, I plan to:
- finish reading Guns, Germs and Steel this holiday
- watch more DVDs at home when i got the chance
speak to me.
i am on the edge of my seat every service; and this time round, i would sit on the edge, with my heart open and surrendered. i will not go away till you stir something in me, and in my friends. i have this deep spiritual discontentment about stuff, i have this immense gratefulness for what you have done, i have this wavering assurances from you, and sometimes not, so many, so many, so many. there is a purpose this christmas. and i cannot wait to end this year, and begin a new one in you, a new heart you create, and a renewed strength.
i love you, Jesus.
woke up, and it is 18th december already.
3 more days to Sophia flying back to Singapore.
4 more days till a possible stay over with My girls.
5 more days till Christmas.
12 more days till New Year – 2010.
16 more days till work officially ends for me.
24 days to my birthday. And for once I am looking forward to that, because it is an excuse I get to meet everybody I seldom get to meet.
and the uncountable ones-
a few more days till school reopens.
a few more days till my period comes (haha!)
